Heart-made Magickal Writings

                ⬆️Art Above is NOT Mine⬆️ I am scared and terrified for tomorrow. My ovaries have been screaming a lot lately. Although I am grateful I go in to see my obgyn I am not looking forward to what Dr. Guerro and her medical associates will have to do to me. I know the doctors are taking a good size graph, as well as the annual pap, breastcheck and ultrasound, of course not in that order. With all this bleeding, and it's not once a month anymore. The frequency of flow is just nonstop sometimes and not a consistency or color that it should be. I'm hoping what ever they do to me while I am under the anesthetics it will be quick. Tonight I have to fast. I cant have nothing to eat after 10pm tonight. That, and I have to take it easy with drinking water. Three sips every 30 minutes to an hour. What's the kick in the pants is that I cant have any of my medicine, this includes pain medications. I know the doctor said it's about a 3 h...

I've been going through a lot lately. This ovarian cancer isn't fun. Neither are the medicines or the vitamins that I take everyday for to keep myself alive and well. Dont get me started on the horrible, HORRIBLE side effects that come with it all. I am lucky I am alive from the last cancer meds which I had painful reactions too. Another reason why I havent been on my blog is because I've been trying to help my mother and I stay above water financially. Im.just grateful.our insurance pays for three quarters of all this medical sh*t. I'm doing all what i can through my tarot cards and craft business to keep us a float. Its difficult with these minor to moderate side effects. One of them is confusion, another is lucid dreaming and night terrors. Sometimes I cannot tell if I'm still dreaming or not. I have to pinch myself to make sure of that this is indeed reality and not a dream. S*cks but what can I do? Also, I am still trying to help my girl friend and ...